Who Are You?

Many years ago I was attending a workshop up in New York and I was given a piece of paper and asked to write ten things describing who I was.

Wow. Well I was a Real Estate agent at the time so I wrote, Realtor.
Then I wrote mother.
Then I put down Wife.

I stared at the paper mortified, I couldn't come up with another thing, and I wanted to look at other peoples papers. My God, some people were still writing!

I was actually in a panic.
Who am I?
I had never really thought about it before and suddenly I was faced with what I felt at the time was a very profound question.

My job, being a mother, a wife, these are just labels, this is not who you are.

I realized I was none of these things. All of those labels are fleeting and inconstant.

The only constant, the only truth is that I am an amazing child of the universe. I am spirit. I was loved into existence.

I am a beloved child of God! WOW!

Society puts titles on us. I know I am guilty of being caught up in this crazy illusion.

The president, the policeman, the doctor. All of these titles have made me feel less than. These people must matter more than me, they have such great titles.

Oh, but they all cry, they all hurt they all want the same things I want, Love, joy, peace and security.

How grateful am I that I do not have to live up to some Title!

But it was never the president, or Bill Gates, who showed up in my life as an angle. Many ordinary people have played that role in my life, for brief moment, many times.

Why, because we are all divine spirit.
We are all made from the same creative energy.

At some time or another, we have all played the role of angle to our sister or brother in spirit, we didn’t realize it at the time, because our ego was not present for the event, we gave purely from the divine spirit within that is always connected to source. We gave without thought of receiving anything in return; we loved, because that is our true nature.

We were given the right words at the right time, from spirit.

We knew to give a hug, bless them, and allow them to be.

Of course I don’t play the role of angle that often.

Just a few days ago a young women ran the intersection and came within inches of ramming my car. In less than a second I was filled with adrenaline and fear. So naturally I yelled a little prayer out the window at her, JESUS CHRIST. And went on my way.

Immediately I started thinking, shouldn’t I be better than that?
Shouldn’t I be better than that?

The VOICES were holding court. The last two Sundays our center the talks concerned the voices, and now I was Busy with them.

I pulled into a gas station parking lot to better observe the conversation.
Shouldn’t I know enough to not react like that?

Well, I don’t know, probably, but none the less that reaction occurred.
Then I found myself smiling at my misconduct.
I was utterly amused at my humanness.

I t bought to mind a Louise Hayes movie I viewed a year ago at What You Love To Do.
I remember the general content of it but one thing in it always resonated with me “ I forgive and I am free”. I really loved that.

So I shut up the judging panel in my head and forgave myself. It was never the other driver that needed my forgiveness, only I needed my forgiveness. So I cheerfully granted it.

I am here to remember Who I Am, and to Forgive Who I am not.
Forgiveness is my greatest power.

No one ever takes anything from me unless I give it to them.

Who am I? I am God expressing itself as Debbie, and that’s pretty cool.

Then I thought how damn lucky I am to be a child of the Great Spirit, expressing and experiencing on this amazing planet.

I am experiencing the incredible gift of emotion.
Love, hate, fear, resentment, joy….

Connecting and inner acting with the spirit in others, and the ego in both.

Everyday a new connection, a variety of emotions, a different experience.

Who am I?

I am an ever evolving, ever changing, expression of the great creator, God.

You are all blessed
Amen


Rev. Deb